The death of my dear brother who was genuinely the nicest and kindest human who lived a life of humility, grounding selflessly giving back to society, did good always, who had lived his life from being successful business from being a poor fatherless kid to owning companies giving love and opportunities to underprivileged lives, being the best very spiritual grounding loyal to God his family society had a very very terrible death in a motor cycle accident he didn't deserve that death that broke me and it's been very terrible for me to digest it it's been months but I have existential crisis now why did God allow it why him even if it's not God to blame but by understanding and reasoning I just can't take it