I feel you, been dealing with depression since I was 15, I'm 30 now… found the right psychologist and been on meds for 4 years, that's when I finally started living for real
You don't wanna call it depression? Fine, call it whatever you want, but the pain is real, and if you know, you know… it's one of the biggest battles of our time, right up there with cancer
Please, have the courage to reach out for professional help, and if the first therapist or meds don't work, try something else — it's all trial and error, but once you find what helps, things really can change
Hope you feel better soon, you deserve it, we all do