I have a problem, I drink 4-5 days a week and when I drink I always binge and usually end up passing out. Once I start drinking it's very difficult to stop, so the 1-2 a day thing doesn't work well for me. In fact, I can have a few sober days without any alcohol and be fine, but once i start drinking i will go to INSANE lengths to get more. I don't even know why I like it, it doesn't make sense. I wake up the next day feeling guilty and pathetic, which is a relatively new thing. I know I'm killing myself, probably quicker than I think. But something about permanent sobriety just fills me with dread, like there's nothing to look forward to. I wish I never started on drugs and alcohol, it's hard to appreciate and look forward to regular things in life after growing an attachment to being high/drunk.